Weblog

Wednesday, 21 October 2009

  • now that school is taking up all my time, i now look forward to the smaller moments.

    and there are many of them if you just look!

    God loves me. that makes everything better.

    somehow i'll make it through this demanding semester. and the end will be sweeeeeet. sweet. pleasant. wonderful. quiet. joyful. free.

Monday, 12 October 2009

  • i want the things of God.

    i want him to define me.

    i want to know his love for me and experience it in the way a bride experiences love from her husband.

    i want to be his bride.

    i don't want mixture.

Saturday, 26 September 2009

Thursday, 24 September 2009

  • "there is nothing called hope in my future"

    just watched the documentary "Born into Brothels".

    man do those type of movies cry out to me.

    its amazing to see the good hearts of the kids raised in horrible conditions.

    breaks my heart to hear them say that there is no hope.

    makes me want to go do something in the world. to find a place with no hope and bring Christ there.
    i want to give something. i want to be used.

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

  • i HATE going pee! i love it when i actually do it, but i'm so tired of having to pee all the time! right now i am in class squirming in my seat. baaaaaah.

    feel like i'm living for the weekend these days. feeling a little blah during the week. feeling a bit uninspired these days. not sure how things are gonna turn out... always wishing for what i can't have (like no hw) but i know that even if i didn't have to do the things i'm doing, i'd proly still be discontented....

    what is it then? why do i feel a tad restless and bored right now. i've lost my sense of awe and fascination.

    Oh Lord. help me to appreciate the small things in life and seek your presence.

    today i am wearing my "wishbone" t-shirt. it has a picture of a poodle showing its teeth on it. it freaks everyone out. me wearing this shirt today tells you that its "one of those days." ha.

Friday, 11 September 2009

  • Lord. thank you for the book that came in the mail just in time for the week i need it! that was crazy good.
    and thank you for where you've put me and the people i have the pleasure of knowing. i pray that tomorrow i wouldn't bee too tired because i'm writing this at 2:45 am.... and if i am, please provide a good nap time?

Saturday, 05 September 2009

Sunday, 30 August 2009

  • My heart wants to Love Him and only Him.
    Lord you are amazing. You make everything better. I am so blessed.
    feel like i've been really soaking in my connections to other people lately. I love each of my friends sooo much. God you have blessed me incredibly.

    Trying to figure out where i will go, what i want to do with my life. I need a dream. a vision to go after. a purpose. Talking with the Lord the other day... felt like he told me that its up to me. That i get to choose. REally? My heart is glad. I know that He loves me so much. And will take care of me wherever i go. So what do i want? hm......

    Sometimes i am overwhelmed with my desire for a husband. A partner. But then the idea scares me. I am so safe in You Lord. So content. I can never decide what i want. I want both. i want to be a wife and mother... but still do what i want with my life. sometimes i feel like those can't go together. we'll have to see....

    as for how this year is looking... can't wait.

Wednesday, 06 May 2009

  • hmmmm.... made it through an entire semester. wow. thats wild. i can't believe i made it! all i remember is crying the 3rd week of school and thinkin, "i have no idea how i'm gonna do this..." and shoot! its over!

    this summer i'm gonna focus on living every moment to its fullest. of course thats always the goal, but the idea always seems to get lost during the school year when there are so many deadlines and projects to just "get through".

    summer is the time when we get to sit back and be who we be. of course i will be doin summer school, but i'm gonna try and not let that spoil anythin.

    i feel like i have grown so much this year, but my next step: if its possible, i would like my heart to completely let a particular boy out of my heart.  I've wanted to do this for along time now, but girls, you know how hard it is to make your heart do exactly what you want it to.

    there is so much more freedom in loving and trusting God. whole-heartedly.  I feel so much more myself when i am single-minded and whole-hearted. Jesus. You are soooo good.  Let me experience your joy and peace in simple times. Bless this summer. Help me to continue in growth, even in hard things. especially in hard things.

Friday, 06 March 2009

  • a few new thoughts...

    Hebrews 10:14
    "because by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy."

    so i've read this many times before, but its never really hit me... he has made perfect forever.
    what? so in God's eyes i am perfect? yes! he even confirms it in the verses that follow: "I will never again remember their sins and lawless deeds"
    so i have known this. but do we live like it? because if he does not see our sins, then really what is between us?  We can be close w/ God. and this is what he intended. to be close.

    perfect? really? just think about it. reallllly think about it. He sees us as perfect, but yet we are still being made holy.if we are being made holy then we are not yet completely holy.

    i still haven't figured this out completely. but i can see its significance and potential to change our relationship with him.

    second thing i am working on: being fully satisfied in Him, especially in the places that i am still looking for a man to fill.  If Christ is to return to us in a matter of years, then what is the point of me seeking after a husband, when my real love is coming for me so soon?  He should be the focus of my heart and my hope.

Top Tags - Weblog

[no tags]